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Summer lovin’ starts now.

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Disney Castle by: Lindsay J. Haynes

Yes. The title is correct. Although it is only Spring here in the United States, I am already planning a summer getaway with the FamBam group. We decided instead of our annual camping summer getaway, we are going to Orlando.  The earlier we purchase the tickets, the cheaper. And when it comes to traveling, the best rates are always the cheapest. This will be the first out-of-state outing of the group and I am excited for it to be honest. I already scouted for plane tickets and I have found an awesome deal online. I am just waiting for the rest of the crew to agree on the times so hopefully we can all go there together. The lodging is free, which does a great deal for the bucks. Nowadays, having vacations can really rip your pocket (if not, two pockets!) in half. Especially summer vacations are the most expensive. The kids are off from school by then and I want to take them somewhere nice this year. It’s like a reward. They have done so well in school and I have been so busy with work. So, this is mostly for them and to spend more quality time with these t’weens. They are not getting any younger, only older by the day, so I want to take that time where they are young enough to enjoy my company until they become way too old to spend time with me. haha.

My goal starting now is to-

  • Confirm with everyone the dates and times of departure and arrivals.
  • Purchase the cheapest tickets we can find online.
  • Scout some discount tickets or if anyone knows someone where I can get a discount for at least one of the parks.
  • Budget the money (how much to spend and where to spend it on.

Probably, right now the most important one is to book the flight and then budget the money. Because once you budget everything, the rest is pretty much a breeze to plan. Being a that kind of person where I jot down in a what I call a “planning notebook”, I make a bullet lists of what to bring and what to do as far as agendas are concern. I am aware that half of the time, the bullet agendas doesn’t get followed most times, at least we have an idea of what to do so we don’t miss anything (and regret it later!).

I am as giddy as a 5 year old kid! I haven’t been back to Florida is such a long time after we moved back to New York City. It’ll be hot but there is always the pool to cool yourself. Win-Win!

 

[ // summer getaway ]

 

Posted in Past Vs. Present

Realizations.

13 July 2009 → 5 March 2017

⌊ Realizations ⌉
Replace my answers with yours and spread the love around:

1. I’ve come to realize. .
2009- that eventually you have to let go.
2017- it is hard to forget and also it takes very long time to forgive.

2. I’ve come to realize that my job..
2009- is making me stressed, all the time.
2017- is still the same stressful environment.

3. I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving..
2009- (i dont know because i do not drive..yet.)
2017- I have obtained my student license already but do not have the availability to have driving lessons yet.

4. I’ve come to realize that I need..
2009- to keep myself busy.
2017- to de-stress my life and to be more uncluttered when it comes to emotional baggage.

5. I’ve come to realize that I’ve lost..
2009- my determination and need to get it back..
2017- a lot of time going back to school because I had to work and earn a living.

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when…
2009- people use you. then they leave u hanging.
2017- people ask a favor through a bridge (or another person) that is intended for me. I always wonder why they can’t ask me directly.

7. I’ve come to realize that the person I like…
2009- really hurt me.
2017- (different partner now) has been my confidant for anything and everything. You can say he’s my best friend.

8. I’ve come to realize that money..
2009- makes people’s beliefs twisted.
2017- still makes people arrogant and twisted.

9. I’ve come to realize that people…
2009- can be just evil.
2017- come and go. People change.

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always be…
2009- me. no questions asked.
2017- the same shy, introverted girl from grade school.

12. I’ve come to realize that my mom...
2009- no matter how annoying she is sometimes, will always be there for me.
2017- did the best she could to raise me despite our differences.

13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone..
2009- needs to be replaced.. n97?? Haha
2017- is only a gadget. And, I hate picking up calls and I am very late answering text messages most times.

14. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning..
2009- i forgot my laundry the last night and had to run downstairs to dry them. Haha
2017- I am already dreading Monday.

15. I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep..
2009- that i miss my kids terribly and just want to go home and be with them.
2017- that buying a humidifier for the room makes all the difference!

16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking about..
2009- how much people can be so selfish; that they do not know how much they are hurting the person to the extent.
2017- how much emotional baggage I’ve endured from my past by accidentally stumbling through my old notes. Yikes.

17. I’ve come to realize that my dad...
2009- was the best dad ever. i miss him.
2017- was and will always be my hero and my mentor.

18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook…
2009- i know that i am bored. Haha
2017- I know that I am still bored.

19. I’ve come to realize that today..
2009- i need to go out.. have fun. buy some belgain fries 😛
2017- that being home and doing nothing can be a really big accomplishment because it rarely happens.

20. I’ve come to realize that tonight…
2009- i will try as much as possible not to go online.
2017- I ate too much and way too late.

21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow will be..
2009- another day.
2017- another stressful day.

22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to..
2009- just see my kids. i cant wait for March.
2017- go on vacation in another part of a country.

24. I’ve come to realize that life…
2009- is a blessing. You just have to make the best out of it.
2017- still the same sentiment as I had back in 2009.

25. I’ve come to realize that this weekend..
2009- i will be working. again.
2017- (upcoming weekend because today is Sunday) I plan to relax more and maybe go for a me-time and colour my hair.

26. I’ve come to realize that my ex..
2009- is an asshole. he made me feel really bad and i KNOW i didnt do anything to him. fuckin’ user! (im sorry, i am so upset)
2017- will always be that one lesson that I do not  want to happen again, hopefully. And, to just stay away from him as much as possible.

27. I’ve realized the best music to listen to when I am upset..
2009- TECHNO/HOUSE MUSIC!!! yeahh, let my ear bleed!! Lol
2017- love songs. Preferably 80’s.

28. I’ve come to realize that my friends…
2009- are the most amazing people i have ever met. and that i love them.
2017- will be there despite not seeing them as much or talking to them. They know I am not much of a social butterfly.

29.I’ve come to realize that the past year…
2009- wasnt so bad compared to the years before.
2017- there wasn’t much an improvement on my end. A bit of a bummer actually.

30. I’ve come to realize that the last person i kissed...
2009- last was a user. making me feel guilty over nothing.
2017- was my bestfriend.

31. I’ve come to realize that when people walk out of my life…
2009- are not worth it.
2017- I’ve learned not to chase them back. They left for a reason. Let it stay that way.

Quick Note: Thank you for scrolling down to the end. I have seen this questionnaire from my other social media account and I thought of rewriting my answers for this year to see if I feel the same sentiment I’ve had eight years in the past. A rare instances that I felt the same way but most of it changed. It was fun seeing my old answers and just contemplate on how angry I was back then. haha. That particular year was pretty hard on me, as you may have read.  

[ // past vs present ]

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Tweenagers.

    And so here I am planning a spring travel with the kids. The boys are pretty much homebodies now and would rather stay home than walk to the nearest grocery store. This is pretty much my usual conversation with one of them:

Me: You guys want to walk to (insert a place near our area)?

First born: What will we be doing there?

Me: look around and maybe buy something.

Youngest: Can I just stay home, Mom? 

Me: You’re stuck in the house all day. You need exercise!

Youngest: But, I don’t want to go out.

First Born: *Meh*

Me: Ok, that is it!! Change clothes and lets go out. Now. You don’t walk with your mother. No play time for the afternoon (meaning game time).

Both: *grunts* 

    I must admit that the boys always have a hard time catching up to me while we walk outside especially when we stepped inside the mall. They hate going with me because for some reason I walk down every aisle. Yes, I am one of those women. But, when weather permits, we would drive to the park. By then, they don’t mind because they can either skate or play soccer while my partner and I jog around the course.

    Tweenager according to Google translate means “a preteen or a young teenager”.  And, since they are a year and few months apart, they are practically in the same level. Do not get me wrong, my kids are good kids but sometimes, they can be trouble. I consider myself a strict mom and I always explain to them that I am doing two jobs as a parent so they have to cut me some slack. If I am a mean mom, that is because you have done something I did not approve of. Who else would discipline them? They are in the age where they understand ( well, I hope they do!). But, they are showing the signs of what is called self-discovery. And, that can be a pretty scary thing sometimes for a parent. You only hope and pray to God that they don’t mingle with the wrong group. I always tell them the pros and cons of things. Sometimes, I do not sugarcoat. It is best to hear it from their own mother than hear it from someone else.

    I remember being that age too. I’ve had my fair share of insecurities and doubts. Half of the time I am trying to “find myself”. My parents were a strict bunch. I was always home reading and sometimes playing with toys (because in my timeline, gadgets were not in or have limited access to it). So, when I gave birth to my own children. I would like to incorporate the strictness of my parents with education but yet in a way lenient at the same time that they don’t have to hide things from me. I would like them to open up to me when they need me.

    I may have been a young mother back then but I already know that I have always wanted kids. It’s just in my case, my blessings came way too early, at a tender age of 21. I have no regrets, though. I want to direct my kids to a more better path than I’ve had. Sometimes, I lose my patience and I scold them but that is part of being a parent: The Ups and Downs of Parenthood. These boys will really test my patience half of the week. But, being a tween is really a start of their adventure and discovering things. And, hopefully, in guiding them to a better path and would stay there.

   Tweenager years are basically the puberty years. So, you would imagine my conversations with my children already. It has, at one point, given me anxiety because it was too sensitive of a topic. But, I know I am the right person to discuss with them about it.

    I just hope they don’t grow up too fast. I am still enjoying them while they are this young even if I want to pull my hair in every direction.

[ //preteens ]

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Friday or Friyay?

There is such a thing as a “Friday” and a “Friyay”. It depends on how you say it and what you are feeling. But, mostly how you are feeling at that time.

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Today is a “Friyay” kind of day. My week started off stressed and tiresome; due to mostly managing my adult life and my children’s life as well. Being a single mom can be a pretty tough job but I seem to manage just so fine. So, I guess I am doing a satisfactory job. But, there are times when I just want to rest my head on my soft pillow and never get up. To just lay there and stare at the ceiling and do absolutely nothing. But, as a busy mom, myself, I can’t afford to just sit there and stare at the ceiling when two tweenagers are constantly calling your name and asking what to eat and do (because they are bored without their gadgets).

But today is a less stressful day. Because I get to get off work earlier and rush home before the kids get home. There is an hour interval of peace and relaxation. And, most importantly, I am in a particularly good mood today. Also, my kids did not drive me crazy today.

We did not go out because it’s Good Friday. I take pleasure just staying home and resting from the hectic week behind me. Doing nothing is just the therapy my body and my mind needs. This also gives me an opportunity to blog in my me-time while the others are doing their own thing.

Music also helps me relax. I have to have music while cooking, cleaning, blogging, even reading. I listen to most genres. Lately, I am into love songs, whether it be an oldie (but a goodie!) or a recently released song. I am a romantic so I enjoy being “serenaded” to. 🙂

This may not be your type of music but it does have sweet lyrics to it.

Please sit and enjoy. And relax.

Everyone deserves to enjoy some me time on this fine Friday.

Currently listening to:

 

[// blog & chill]