Posted in Past Vs. Present

Realizations.

13 July 2009 → 5 March 2017

⌊ Realizations ⌉
Replace my answers with yours and spread the love around:

1. I’ve come to realize. .
2009- that eventually you have to let go.
2017- it is hard to forget and also it takes very long time to forgive.

2. I’ve come to realize that my job..
2009- is making me stressed, all the time.
2017- is still the same stressful environment.

3. I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving..
2009- (i dont know because i do not drive..yet.)
2017- I have obtained my student license already but do not have the availability to have driving lessons yet.

4. I’ve come to realize that I need..
2009- to keep myself busy.
2017- to de-stress my life and to be more uncluttered when it comes to emotional baggage.

5. I’ve come to realize that I’ve lost..
2009- my determination and need to get it back..
2017- a lot of time going back to school because I had to work and earn a living.

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when…
2009- people use you. then they leave u hanging.
2017- people ask a favor through a bridge (or another person) that is intended for me. I always wonder why they can’t ask me directly.

7. I’ve come to realize that the person I like…
2009- really hurt me.
2017- (different partner now) has been my confidant for anything and everything. You can say he’s my best friend.

8. I’ve come to realize that money..
2009- makes people’s beliefs twisted.
2017- still makes people arrogant and twisted.

9. I’ve come to realize that people…
2009- can be just evil.
2017- come and go. People change.

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always be…
2009- me. no questions asked.
2017- the same shy, introverted girl from grade school.

12. I’ve come to realize that my mom...
2009- no matter how annoying she is sometimes, will always be there for me.
2017- did the best she could to raise me despite our differences.

13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone..
2009- needs to be replaced.. n97?? Haha
2017- is only a gadget. And, I hate picking up calls and I am very late answering text messages most times.

14. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning..
2009- i forgot my laundry the last night and had to run downstairs to dry them. Haha
2017- I am already dreading Monday.

15. I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep..
2009- that i miss my kids terribly and just want to go home and be with them.
2017- that buying a humidifier for the room makes all the difference!

16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking about..
2009- how much people can be so selfish; that they do not know how much they are hurting the person to the extent.
2017- how much emotional baggage I’ve endured from my past by accidentally stumbling through my old notes. Yikes.

17. I’ve come to realize that my dad...
2009- was the best dad ever. i miss him.
2017- was and will always be my hero and my mentor.

18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook…
2009- i know that i am bored. Haha
2017- I know that I am still bored.

19. I’ve come to realize that today..
2009- i need to go out.. have fun. buy some belgain fries 😛
2017- that being home and doing nothing can be a really big accomplishment because it rarely happens.

20. I’ve come to realize that tonight…
2009- i will try as much as possible not to go online.
2017- I ate too much and way too late.

21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow will be..
2009- another day.
2017- another stressful day.

22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to..
2009- just see my kids. i cant wait for March.
2017- go on vacation in another part of a country.

24. I’ve come to realize that life…
2009- is a blessing. You just have to make the best out of it.
2017- still the same sentiment as I had back in 2009.

25. I’ve come to realize that this weekend..
2009- i will be working. again.
2017- (upcoming weekend because today is Sunday) I plan to relax more and maybe go for a me-time and colour my hair.

26. I’ve come to realize that my ex..
2009- is an asshole. he made me feel really bad and i KNOW i didnt do anything to him. fuckin’ user! (im sorry, i am so upset)
2017- will always be that one lesson that I do not  want to happen again, hopefully. And, to just stay away from him as much as possible.

27. I’ve realized the best music to listen to when I am upset..
2009- TECHNO/HOUSE MUSIC!!! yeahh, let my ear bleed!! Lol
2017- love songs. Preferably 80’s.

28. I’ve come to realize that my friends…
2009- are the most amazing people i have ever met. and that i love them.
2017- will be there despite not seeing them as much or talking to them. They know I am not much of a social butterfly.

29.I’ve come to realize that the past year…
2009- wasnt so bad compared to the years before.
2017- there wasn’t much an improvement on my end. A bit of a bummer actually.

30. I’ve come to realize that the last person i kissed...
2009- last was a user. making me feel guilty over nothing.
2017- was my bestfriend.

31. I’ve come to realize that when people walk out of my life…
2009- are not worth it.
2017- I’ve learned not to chase them back. They left for a reason. Let it stay that way.

Quick Note: Thank you for scrolling down to the end. I have seen this questionnaire from my other social media account and I thought of rewriting my answers for this year to see if I feel the same sentiment I’ve had eight years in the past. A rare instances that I felt the same way but most of it changed. It was fun seeing my old answers and just contemplate on how angry I was back then. haha. That particular year was pretty hard on me, as you may have read.  

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